Why Are Songs About Depression So Depressing?

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Music has always found a way to speak to me. It’s not always the lyrics and it’s not always the melodies, but there is something therapeutic about being alone with my thoughts, playing that “perfect” song, and getting down to business with my feelings. Now that depression and anxiety have entered my world unannounced (and uninvited), music has become even more of a comfort. Processing my emotions is a constant struggle for me because, quite frankly, they seem to change so quickly and frequently.

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Shadows will scream that I’m alone,
But I know we’ve made it this far, kid.

I’ve never been someone who finds watching a chick flick with a pint of ice cream and having a good cry appealing. I prefer NOT to cry. It’s not something I enjoy and I will do everything in my power to stop it from happening (sounds healthy, right?). I think I’ve cried more this year than I have my entire life, mostly out of anger, confusion, and maybe a little bit of self-pity sprinkled in the mix. Even during a meltdown of epic proportions, when I can’t stop the tears from flowing and I couldn’t begin to tell you why, I know I can count of my old friend music to bring me some relief.

Let it be said what the headache represents,
It’s me defending in suspense,
It’s me suspended in a defenseless test
Being tested by a ruthless examinant
That’s represented best by my depressing thoughts

I chose “Migraine” by twenty one pilots for this weeks Musing Monday. This song speaks to me for a few reasons, but I love that it is a song about depression that isn’t, well, depressing. Don’t get me wrong, I completely understand why songs on the topic are sad, bleak and overall tend to destroy any happy thought you have left, but come on people. Why must the majority of songs about depression be so dang depressing. It’s bad enough being depressed, why do I want to go further into the darkness? That’s just asking for trouble. I love that this song is upbeat while still addressing an ever-present question anyone struggling with their mental health has: am I the only one? YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE, YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. “We’ve made it this far, kid”.

***TRIGGER WARNING***

There are a few references to suicide in this song. IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS HAVING THOUGHTS ABOUT SUICIDE, PLEASE CALL FOR HELP!

NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE:

1-800-273-8255

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

 

“Migraine”

Am I the only one I know,
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Shadows will scream that I’m alone.

I-I-I I’ve got a migraine
And my pain will range from up, down, and sideways,
Thank God it’s Friday
‘Cause Fridays will always be better than Sundays
‘Cause Sundays are my suicide days,
I don’t know why they always seem so dismal,
Thunderstorms, clouds, snow, and a slight drizzle,
Whether it’s the weather or the letters by my bed,
Sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head,
Let it be said what the headache represents,
It’s me defending in suspense,
It’s me suspended in a defenseless test
Being tested by a ruthless examinant
That’s represented best by my depressing thoughts,
I do not have writer’s block,
My writer just hates the clock,
It will not let me sleep, I’ll get some sleep when I’m dead,
And sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head.

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Shadows will scream that I’m alone,
But I know we’ve made it this far, kid.
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I am not as fine as I seem, pardon
Me for yelling, I’m telling you green gardens
Are not what’s growing in my psyche, it’s a different me,
A difficult to be, stop feasting lumber-down trees
Freeze frame please, let me paint a mental picture portrait,
Something you won’t forget, it’s all about my forehead,
And now it is a door that holds back contents,
That make Pandora’s Box’s contents look non-violent,
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence,
My mind ship-wrecked,
This is the only land my mind could find,
I did not know it was such a violent island,
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions,
They’re trying to eat me, blood running down their chin,
And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win,
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find,
‘Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind.

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Shadows will scream that I’m alone,
But I know we’ve made it this far, kid.

And I will say that we should take a day to break away
From all the pain our brain has made,
The game is not played alone.
And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it,
And keep it frozen and know that
Life has a hopeful undertone.

And I will say that we should take a day to break away
From all the pain our brain has made,
The game is not played alone.
And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it,
And keep it frozen and know that
Life has a hopeful undertone.

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Shadows will scream that I’m alone,
But I know we’ve made it this far, kid.

We’ve made it this far
We’ve made it this f…

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