How many times have you found yourself saying, “Breathe. You’re fine. I’m fine. Just…breathe.”? How many mornings do you force yourself out of bed and give yourself a pep talk just to find that last bit of motivation left to face another day? How many hours have you spent relentlessly looking for answers, tips or explanations on why you’re feeling what you’re feeling, or what to do to just make it stop? Maybe the hardest question to answer is how many events, parties, concerts or game nights have you missed, or even lied to get out of, because you can’t tell your friends or family that you just can’t make it?
My name is Melissa, a 32-year-old college graduate with a wonderful husband and a son who is equally as smart as he is handsome. I have a full-time job, a beautiful, new home, and I just bought a new car. Oh yeah, I should probably also mention one other tiny detail: I have also been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and let’s not forget adult A.D.H.D. (lucky me, huh?).
The following months after diagnosis proved to be the most difficult times I’ve yet to endure. I searched website after website, consulted medical journals, read articles until my eyes went crossed; night after night, I searched for answers that I would never find which made the anxiety and depression all the more worse. I didn’t need another article explaining the anatomy and physiology of these disorders, I didn’t need to know another statistic: I NEEDED TO KNOW THAT I WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FELT LIKE THIS!
After exhausting all options, I finally found that no such place existed. Short of visiting a mental institute, I felt like I had nowhere to turn. Nobody else understood how I felt and how could they? How do you explain to others what you yourself don’t even understand? Suddenly, out of the blue, the idea for this blog was born. Who better to answer your questions than someone living through the same hell as you? Who else can relate to you, empathize with you, and possibly even help you more than someone making the same journey as you?
Beautifully Depressed, Anxiously Inspired is a blog for anyone suffering from anxiety and/or depression as well as for friends or family of someone who is. This is meant to be an interactive safety net for those looking for answers, asking advice and sharing their stories and what has helped (or hurt) along the way. We all have something that speaks to us and helps pull us out of the rabbit hole, and you never know how a simple post or suggestion can change a life. Maybe something that helps you could be just what someone else has been searching for. BE WHO YOU NEEDED WHEN YOU NEEDED IT THE MOST.
We all know the stigma that comes with mental illness, and the only way to end that stigma is to stop letting it silence us. I encourage everyone reading this, sufferers and supporters alike, to participate in this journey. I can’t wait to see how a little support and empathy can change how we interact with one another. I look forward to going on this journey with you and never forget: Breathe. You are fine. You are not alone.